After The Love Was Gone

Being heart broken is common to everyone and old people told me that once in someone's life they will experience it. I used to be a jolly cheerful and easy to deal with person, not until i was heart broken. I was alone for sometime, ayoko kasi maging KJ. Everyones having fun tapos ako malungkot so i spent time alone doing something that makes me feel alright. Well, reading books, surfing the internet,shopping,parlor, all by my self.I do things that i haven't tried before... Di ko namalayan years had passed and I'm getting used to being alone already...

My perceptions change that leads me to do some foolish things, i loose my self esteem, i loose my self.

I loose my friends...And that's sad! 

But in a way, I was happy! i didn't loose everything. I became more intact with my family i spend more time with them. I recognized who my real friends are, very few! I can even count them through my fingers.Yeah! those were the people who stayed despite that my life is so meaningless, worthless and nameless... I love them more!!!

Day by day life goes on, I am feeling better and better each day. I regret the foolishness I've done.But in a way, I've learned! I'll never ever do it again, NEVER!

I'm stronger now. I used to label myself as FRAGILE, VULNERABLE, BLUEANGEL and inlove with the word LOVE...It's deleted anyway! I realized how beautiful life is! And i laugh as i recalled why i was so down that time which made me ask myself, am i really a heart broken or an ego broken? whatever! Anyway, TRUST is something like a precious gem which you cannot just give away to anyone unless it is earned, with a guy or with a friend...It's a lesson...Smile? not everyone who does it is real...

2007, alone, free and happy... A tall young fair guy from the same department i am working with was transferred to our area. i basically know him his name and his face...He did get to know me. He is tough, principled and challenging guy...I don't like him and i even changed my work sched just to be away with him... But later we became an item...And today, it is our 46th monthsary! Cool...

He did change my life! He is so honest and true, he is upfront and don't play mind games... He speak his mind. He knows how to concede. He's a man... And i love him more than i loved before. He's my best friend,my lover and soon to be my husband :) 

Things really happened for a reason.When the door closes, the windows open.

After meeting some frogs, i found my prince

And I Love what i got... =)

Balinsasayaw Restaurant @ Silang Cavite

Strolling along cavite area on the month of hearts, we found this resto along Aguinaldo highway right after Silang town proper and before Tagaytay. Balinsasayaw is name after a bird from Palawan which i think their main branch is located. 

At the entrance. Couple shot muna with the name :)

The place is very accessible whether you drive your own car or you travel by bus or jeep bound to Olivarez or Mendez. Just ask to driver to drop you there if you are afraid na lumampas... 

 Again it's my first time, so less expectations and my standards are not that high. So entrance pa lang, i can say  i love the place... Pwedeng pang garden wedding... May stairways pa kabilaan yan...

On our way up to the cottage. I think i like the view smile! luv it!!!

Alright, it's my turn. who says cottages are only for beach area? nice! covered by net pa!

 Yup, you'll be eating at an insect free area. May privacy cottages are distantly apart... There are bigger cottages for bigger events and people. yung amin kasya up to 4 persons...ok, as we enter the cotage, the waiter handed us the menu. Then before he left he point to us the bell(take note: pang sorbetero) just ring it to call them back or anytime we need something, unique diba..At ang maganda there are wide varieties of food choices,pinoy na pinoy...

We ordered Kimchi for appetizer, garlic shrimp, Palawan tuna express, Mango daiquiri for me and balinsasayaw rose for Allen.  Tara! luch na tayo :)

 Aside from the nice service, we  paid 600fesus only  lahat na yun...The price is just right but the taste! sarap! thumbs up lalo na sa Palawan tuna express.Im not a kimchi lover kaya di ko masyado na appreciate... experience lng to kaya nag try kami out of curiosity ba...

Balinsasayaw Dessert!!! kala ko kung ano,ice cream sa buko pala. infairness ok nman...

 After eating lakad lakad muna sa garden, hmmm flowers everywhere, fresh air.. Inhale, exhale!

white orchids

red orange ewan

violet na santan? pwede ko rin kaya kunin yung pulp at tikman gaya nung elementary pako? hehehehe

yellow ewan

eto kilala ko red gumamela! yung ginagawa kong pampalobo nung bata hehehe...

At ang pinaka magandang bulaklak, LMAO!

AH couple shot ulit...feeling adam and eve ng present :)

Before we left, picture ulit... we both enjoy this place, ito na kaya? hmmm we'll see :)

mama:look where i am right now

bus provided by maxim as we arrived at L.A.H.I in tagaytay

 Worship avenue group from our company (Maxim Phils.) has organized an outreached program last December 2010 entitled : Maxim Tree of Blessing were in they encourage every employee to give gifts to the children and shared blessings... The options were to donate at least 150 worth of grocery items needed by kids and babies such as diapers, milk, slippers, school supplies, toiletries and food or sponsor at least 1 kid to give gifts...i choose to sponsor a kid and i volunteer to the worship avenue and join them at the orphanage...i was the only QA who joined team, that means i didn't know anyone on the group...

14 kids living at mango house orphanage ages 10 and below

 Since this is my first time and i love babies and kids in nature, i felt a pinch in my heart... Every kids has a different story why they are there...and it hurts me to think that some of them are abandoned...But later on i realized they are still luckier than other children since they have a home and a great mom... These kids are well trained and disciplined, sobrang babait i guess they are raised well...

preparing for the game

with their ate Esmie from shipping dept. @ mango house Silang Cavite

presenting the gifts to their mother

kids are having fun, i love watching them play...

it's kuya Don's turn, young at heart

gift giving started

thanks ate Esmie for the company

i like the gift bag...

and more gifts to give...

helping this little boy open his gift...

 This is my learning event...why? cuz this little boy, despite that he gets smaller gifts compared to the others, he was happy and appreciative with what he gets, he wasn't envious with his friends.he even told me ,wow so many stickers, its more than 10...i never seen anyone of them fought for the toys they get and never envied each other...it's like telling me, BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE and don't envy others...

finally meet their fairy godmother...

i remember she told us while taking this picture, Oh! i feel like a celebrity today...She has a great heart...

The whole group worship avenue and some volunteers...

At the end of the day, i contemplate...Joining outreached program can make you feel like you are truly blessed and you wanted to share more of what you have specially with these kids, they are incapable of getting all their needs even just the basics if they don't depend on someone who's capable of giving...

And i told myself, I'll do it again...But this time I'll be more prepared cuz i want to give more.Not just something material  but more of my effort... i think i'll go back with this HOME...

this post intention is to encourage others to organize more outreach program or help children. Most of all enlighten people to be responsible enough to handle their child... They are gift from God and they have the right to live a normal life...